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CHAPTER IX

    THEFAMILYOFMICHAELAROUT
    September15th,EightOclock
    Thismorning,whileIwasarrangingmybooks,MotherGenevievecamein,andbroughtmethebasketoffruitIbuyofhereverySunday.ForthenearlytwentyyearsthatIhavelivedinthisquarter,Ihavedealtinherlittlefruit-shop.PerhapsIshouldbebetterservedelsewhere,butMotherGenevievehasbutlittlecustom;toleaveherwoulddoherharm,andcauseherunnecessarypain.Itseemstomethatthelengthofouracquaintancehasmademeincurasortoftacitobligationtoher;mypatronagehasbecomeherproperty.
    Shehasputthebasketuponmytable,andasIwantherhusband,whoisajoiner,toaddsomeshelvestomybookcase,shehasgonedownstairsagainimmediatelytosendhimtome.
    AtfirstIdidnotnoticeeitherherlooksorthesoundofhervoice:
    but,nowthatIrecallthem,itseemstomethatshewasnotasjovialasusual.CanMotherGenevievebeintroubleaboutanything?
    Poorwoman!Allherbestyearsweresubjecttosuchbittertrials,thatshemightthinkshehadreceivedherfullsharealready.WereItoliveahundredyears,Ishouldneverforgetthecircumstanceswhichmadeherknowntome,andwhichobtainedforhermyrespect.
    Itwasatthetimeofmyfirstsettlinginthefaubourg.Ihadnoticedheremptyfruit-shop,whichnobodycameinto,and,beingattractedbyitsforsakenappearance,Imademylittlepurchasesinit.Ihavealwaysinstinctivelypreferredthepoorshops;thereislesschoiceinthem,butitseemstomethatmypurchaseisasignofsympathywithabrotherinpoverty.Theselittledealingsarealmostalwaysananchorofhopetothosewhoseveryexistenceisinperil——theonlymeansbywhichsomeorphangainsalivelihood.Theretheaimofthetradesmanisnottoenrichhimself,buttolive!Thepurchaseyoumakeofhimismorethananexchange——itisagoodaction.
    MotherGenevieveatthattimewasstillyoung,buthadalreadylostthatfreshbloomofyouthwhichsufferingcausestowithersosoonamongthepoor.Herhusband,acleverjoiner,graduallyleftoffworkingtobecome,accordingtothepicturesqueexpressionoftheworkshops,aworshipperofSaintMonday.Thewagesoftheweek,whichwasalwaysreducedtotwoorthreeworkingdays,werecompletelydedicatedbyhimtotheworshipofthisgodoftheBarriers,——[ThecheapwineshopsareoutsidetheBarriers,toavoidtheoctroi,ormunicipalexcise.]——andGenevievewasobligedherselftoprovideforallthewantsofthehousehold.
    Oneevening,whenIwenttomakesometriflingpurchasesofher,Iheardasoundofquarrellinginthebackshop.Therewerethevoicesofseveralwomen,amongwhichIdistinguishedthatofGenevieve,brokenbysobs.Onlookingfartherin,Iperceivedthefruit-womanholdingachildinherarms,andkissingit,whileacountrynurseseemedtobeclaimingherwagesfromher.Thepoorwoman,whowithoutdoubthadexhaustedeveryexplanationandeveryexcuse,wascryinginsilence,andoneofherneighborswastryinginvaintoappeasethecountrywoman.Excitedbythatloveofmoneywhichtheevilsofahardpeasantlifebuttoowellexcuse,anddisappointedbytherefusalofherexpectedwages,thenursewaslaunchingforthinrecriminations,threats,andabuse.Inspiteofmyself,Ilistenedtothequarrel,notdaringtointerfere,andnotthinkingofgoingaway,whenMichaelAroutappearedattheshop-door.
    ThejoinerhadjustcomefromtheBarriers,wherehehadpassedpartofthedayatapublic-house.Hisblouse,withoutabelt,anduntiedatthethroat,showednoneofthenoblestainsofwork:inhishandheheldhiscap,whichhehadjustpickedupoutofthemud;hishairwasindisorder,hiseyefixed,andthepallorofdrunkennessinhisface.Hecamereelingin,lookedwildlyaroundhim,andcalledGenevieve.
    Sheheardhisvoice,gaveastart,andrushedintotheshop;butatthesightofthemiserableman,whowastryinginvaintosteadyhimself,shepressedthechildinherarms,andbentoveritwithtears.
    Thecountrywomanandtheneighborhadfollowedher.
    "Come!come!"criedtheformerinarage,"doyouintendtopayme,afterall?"
    "Askthemasterforthemoney,"ironicallyansweredthewomanfromthenextdoor,pointingtothejoiner,whohadjustfallenagainstthecounter.
    Thecountrywomanlookedathim.
    "Ah!heisthefather,"returnedshe."Well,whatidlebeggars!nottohaveapennytopayhonestpeople;andgettipsywithwineinthatway."
    Thedrunkardraisedhishead.
    "What!what!"stammeredhe;"whoisitthattalksofwine?Ivehadnothingbutbrandy!ButIamgoingbackagaintogetsomewine!Wife,givemeyourmoney;therearesomefriendswaitingformeatthePerelaTuille."
    Genevievedidnotanswer:hewentroundthecounter,openedthetill,andbegantorummageinit.
    "Youseewherethemoneyofthehousegoes!"observedtheneighbortothecountrywoman;"howcanthepoorunhappywomanpayyouwhenhetakesall?"
    "Isthatmyfault?"repliedthenurse,angrily."Theyowetome,andsomehoworothertheymustpayme!"
    Andlettingloosehertongue,asthesewomenoutofthecountrydo,shebeganrelatingatlengthallthecareshehadtakenofthechild,andalltheexpenseithadbeentoher.Inproportionassherecalledallshehaddone,herwordsseemedtoconvincehermorethaneverofherrights,andtoincreaseheranger.Thepoormother,whonodoubtfearedthatherviolencewouldfrightenthechild,returnedintothebackshop,andputitintoitscradle.
    Whetheritisthatthecountrywomansawinthisactadeterminationtoescapeherclaims,orthatshewasblindedbypassion,Icannotsay;butsherushedintothenextroom,whereIheardthesoundsofquarrelling,withwhichthecriesofthechildweresoonmingled.Thejoiner,whowasstillrummaginginthetill,wasstartled,andraisedhishead.
    AtthesamemomentGenevieveappearedatthedoor,holdinginherarmsthebabythatthecountrywomanwastryingtotearfromher.Sherantowardthecounter,andthrowingherselfbehindherhusband,cried:
    "Michael,defendyourson!"
    Thedrunkenmanquicklystooduperect,likeonewhoawakeswithastart.
    "Myson!"stammeredhe;"whatson?"
    Hislooksfelluponthechild;avaguerayofintelligencepassedoverhisfeatures.
    "Robert,"resumedhe;"itisRobert!"
    Hetriedtosteadyhimselfonhisfeet,thathemighttakethebaby,buthetottered.Thenurseapproachedhiminarage.
    "Mymoney,orIshalltakethechildaway!"criedshe."ItisIwhohavefedandbroughtitup:ifyoudontpaymeforwhathasmadeitlive,itoughttobethesametoyouasifitweredead.IshallnotgountilIhavemydue,orthebaby."
    "Andwhatwouldyoudowithhim?"murmuredGenevieve,pressingRobertagainstherbosom.
    "TakeittotheFoundling!"repliedthecountrywoman,harshly;"thehospitalisabettermotherthanyouare,foritpaysforthefoodofitslittleones."
    Attheword"Foundling,"Genevievehadexclaimedaloudinhorror.Withherarmswoundroundherson,whoseheadshehidinherbosom,andhertwohandsspreadoverhim,shehadretreatedtothewall,andremainedwithherbackagainstit,likealionessdefendingheryoung.TheneighborandIcontemplatedthisscene,withoutknowinghowwecouldinterfere.AsforMichael,helookedatusbyturns,makingavisibleefforttocomprehenditall.WhenhiseyeresteduponGenevieveandthechild,itlitupwithagleamofpleasure;butwhenheturnedtowardus,heagainbecamestupidandhesitating.
    Atlast,apparentlymakingaprodigiouseffort,hecriedout,"Wait!"
    Andgoingtoatubfilledwithwater,heplungedhisfaceintoitseveraltimes.
    Everyeyewasturneduponhim;thecountrywomanherselfseemedastonished.Atlengthheraisedhisdrippinghead.Thisablutionhadpartlydispelledhisdrunkenness;helookedatusforamoment,thenheturnedtoGenevieve,andhisfacebrightenedup.
    "Robert!"criedhe,goinguptothechild,andtakinghiminhisarms.
    "Ah!givehimme,wife;Imustlookathim."
    Themotherseemedtogiveuphissontohimwithreluctance,andstayedbeforehimwithherarmsextended,asifshefearedthechildwouldhaveafall.Thenursebeganagaininherturntospeak,andrenewedherclaims,thistimethreateningtoappealtolaw.AtfirstMichaellistenedtoherattentively,andwhenhecomprehendedhermeaning,hegavethechildbacktoitsmother.
    "Howmuchdoweoweyou?"askedhe.
    Thecountrywomanbegantoreckonupthedifferentexpenses,whichamountedtonearlythirtyfrancs.Thejoinerfelttothebottomofhispockets,butcouldfindnothing.Hisforeheadbecamecontractedbyfrowns;lowcursesbegantoescapehim.Allofasuddenherummagedinhisbreast,drewforthalargewatch,andholdingitupabovehishead:
    "Hereitis——heresyourmoney!"criedhewithajoyfullaugh;"awatch,agoodone!Ialwayssaiditwouldkeepforadrinkonadryday;butitisnotIwhowilldrinkit,buttheyoungone.Ah!ah!ah!goandsellitforme,neighbor,andifthatisnotenough,Ihavemyearrings.Eh!
    Genevieve,takethemoffforme;theearringswillsquareall!Theyshallnotsayyouhavebeendisgracedonaccountofthechild——no,notevenifImustpledgeabitofmyflesh!Mywatch,myearrings,andmyring——getridofallofthemformeatthegoldsmiths;paythewoman,andletthelittlefoolgotosleep.Givehimme,Genevieve;Iwillputhimtobed."
    And,takingthebabyfromthearmsofhismother,hecarriedhimwithafirmsteptohiscradle.
    ItwaseasytoperceivethechangewhichtookplaceinMichaelfromthisday.Hecutallhisolddrinkingacquaintances.Hewentearlyeverymorningtohiswork,andreturnedregularlyintheeveningtofinishthedaywithGenevieveandRobert.Verysoonhewouldnotleavethematall,andhehiredaplacenearthefruit-shop,andworkedinitonhisownaccount.
    Theywouldsoonhavebeenabletoliveincomfort,haditnotbeenfortheexpenseswhichthechildrequired.Everythingwasgivenuptohiseducation.Hehadgonethroughtheregularschooltraining,hadstudiedmathematics,drawing,andthecarpenterstrade,andhadonlybeguntoworkafewmonthsago.Tillnow,theyhadbeenexhaustingeveryresourcewhichtheirlaboriousindustrycouldprovidetopushhimforwardinhisbusiness;and,happily,alltheseexertionshadnotproveduseless:theseedhadbroughtforthfruit,andthedaysofharvestwerecloseby.
    WhileIwasthusrecallingtheseremembrancestomymind,Michaelhadcomein,andwasoccupiedinfixingshelveswheretheywerewanted.
    DuringthetimeIwaswritingthenotesofmyjournal,Iwasalsoscrutinizingthejoiner.
    Theexcessesofhisyouthandthelaborofhismanhoodhavedeeplymarkedhisface;hishairisthinandgray,hisshouldersstoop,hislegsareshrunkenandslightlybent.Thereseemsasortofweightinhiswholebeing.Hisveryfeatureshaveanexpressionofsorrowanddespondency.
    Heanswersmyquestionsbymonosyllables,andlikeamanwhowishestoavoidconversation.Whencecomesthisdejection,whenonewouldthinkhehadallhecouldwishfor?Ishouldliketoknow!
    Tenoclock——Michaelisjustgonedownstairstolookforatoolhehasforgotten.IhaveatlastsucceededindrawingfromhimthesecretofhisandGenevievessorrow.TheirsonRobertisthecauseofit!
    Notthathehasturnedoutillafteralltheircare——notthatheisidleordissipated;butbothwereinhopeshewouldneverleavethemanymore.
    Thepresenceoftheyoungmanwastohaverenewedandmadegladtheirlivesoncemore;hismothercountedthedays,hisfatherpreparedeverythingtoreceivetheirdearassociateintheirtoils;andatthemomentwhentheywerethusabouttoberepaidforalltheirsacrifices,RoberthadsuddenlyinformedthemthathehadjustengagedhimselftoacontractoratVersailles.
    Everyremonstranceandeveryprayerwereuseless;hebroughtforwardthenecessityofinitiatinghimselfintoallthedetailsofanimportantcontract,thefacilitiesheshouldhaveinhisnewpositionofimprovinghimselfinhistrade,andthehopeshehadofturninghisknowledgetoadvantage.At,last,whenhismother,havingcometotheendofherarguments,begantocry,hehastilykissedher,andwentawaythathemightavoidanyfurtherremonstrances.
    Hehadbeenabsentayear,andtherewasnothingtogivethemhopesofhisreturn.Hisparentshardlysawhimonceamonth,andthenheonlystayedafewmomentswiththem.
    "IhavebeenpunishedwhereIhadhopedtoberewarded,"Michaelsaidtomejustnow."Ihadwishedforasavingandindustriousson,andGodhasgivenmeanambitiousandavariciousone!Ihadalwayssaidtomyselfthatwhenoncehewasgrownupweshouldhavehimalwayswithus,torecallouryouthandtoenlivenourhearts.Hismotherwasalwaysthinkingofgettinghimmarried,andhavingchildrenagaintocarefor.
    Youknowwomenalwayswillbusythemselvesaboutothers.Asforme,Ithoughtofhimworkingnearmybench,andsinginghisnewsongs;forhehaslearntmusic,andisoneofthebestsingersattheOrpheon.
    Adream,sir,truly!Directlythebirdwasfledged,hetooktoflight,andremembersneitherfathernormother.Yesterday,forinstance,wasthedayweexpectedhim;heshouldhavecometosupperwithus.NoRobertto-day,either!Hehashadsomeplantofinish,orsomebargaintoarrange,andhisoldparentsareputdownlastintheaccounts,afterthecustomersandthejoinerswork.Ah!ifIcouldhaveguessedhowitwouldhaveturnedout!Fool!tohavesacrificedmylikingsandmymoney,fornearlytwentyyears,totheeducationofathanklessson!WasitforthisItookthetroubletocuremyselfofdrinking,tobreakwithmyfriends,tobecomeanexampletotheneighborhood?Thejovialgoodfellowhasmadeagooseofhimself.Oh!ifIhadtobeginagain!No,no!youseewomenandchildrenareourbane.Theysoftenourhearts;theyleadusalifeofhopeandaffection;wepassaquarterofourlivesinfosteringthegrowthofagrainofcornwhichistobeeverythingtousinouroldage,andwhentheharvest-timecomes——good-night,theearisempty!"
    Whilehewasspeaking,Michaelsvoicebecamehoarse,hiseyesfierce,andhislipsquivered.Iwishedtoanswerhim,butIcouldonlythinkofcommonplaceconsolations,andIremainedsilent.Thejoinerpretendedheneededatool,andleftme.
    Poorfather!Ah!Iknowthosemomentsoftemptationwhenvirtuehasfailedtorewardus,andweregrethavingobeyedher!Whohasnotfeltthisweaknessinhoursoftrial,andwhohasnotuttered,atleastonce,themournfulexclamationofBrutus?
    Butifvirtueisonlyaword,whatistheretheninlifethatistrueandreal?No,Iwillnotbelievethatgoodnessisinvain!Itdoesnotalwaysgivethehappinesswehadhopedfor,butitbringssomeother.
    Intheworldeverythingisruledbyorder,andhasitsproperandnecessaryconsequences,andvirtuecannotbethesoleexceptiontothegenerallaw.Ifithadbeenprejudicialtothosewhopractisedit,experiencewouldhaveavengedthem;butexperiencehas,onthecontrary,madeitmoreuniversalandmoreholy.Weonlyaccuseitofbeingafaithlessdebtorbecausewedemandanimmediatepayment,andoneapparenttooursenses.Wealwaysconsiderlifeasafairytale,inwhicheverygoodactionmustberewardedbyavisiblewonder.Wedonotacceptaspaymentapeacefulconscience,self-content,oragoodnameamongmen——treasuresthataremorepreciousthananyother,butthevalueofwhichwedonotfeeltillafterwehavelostthem!
    Michaeliscomeback,andhasreturnedtohiswork.Hissonhasnotyetarrived.
    Bytellingmeofhishopesandhisgrievousdisappointments,hebecameexcited;heunceasinglywentoveragainthesamesubject,alwaysaddingsomethingtohisgriefs.Hehadjustwounduphisconfidentialdiscoursebyspeakingtomeofajoinersbusinesswhichhehadhopedtobuy,andworktogoodaccountwithRobertshelp.Thepresentownerhadmadeafortunebyit,and,afterthirtyyearsofbusiness,hewasthinkingofretiringtooneoftheornamentalcottagesintheoutskirtsofthecity,ausualretreatforthefrugalandsuccessfulworkingman.Michaelhadnotindeedthetwothousandfrancswhichmustbepaiddown;butperhapshecouldhavepersuadedMasterBenoittowait.Robertspresencewouldhavebeenasecurityforhim,fortheyoungmancouldnotfailtoinsuretheprosperityofaworkshop;besidesscienceandskill,hehadthepowerofinventionandbringingtoperfection.Hisfatherhaddiscoveredamonghisdrawingsanewplanforastaircase,whichhadoccupiedhisthoughtsforalongtime;andheevensuspectedhimofhavingengagedhimselftotheVersaillescontractorfortheverypurposeofexecutingit.Theyouthwastormentedbythisspiritofinvention,whichtookpossessionofallhisthoughts,and,whiledevotinghismindtostudy,hehadnotimetolistentohisfeelings.
    Michaeltoldmeallthiswithamixedfeelingofprideandvexation.Isawhewasproudofthesonhewasabusing,andthathisverypridemadehimmoresensitivetothatsonsneglect.
    SixoclockP.M——Ihavejustfinishedahappyday.Howmanyeventshavehappenedwithinafewhours,andwhatachangeforGenevieveandMichael!
    Hehadjustfinishedfixingtheshelves,andtellingmeofhisson,whileIlaidtheclothformybreakfast.
    Suddenlyweheardhurriedstepsinthepassage,thedooropened,andGenevieveenteredwithRobert.
    Thejoinergaveastartofjoyfulsurprise,butherepresseditimmediately,asifhewishedtokeepuptheappearanceofdispleasure.
    Theyoungmandidnotappeartonoticeit,butthrewhimselfintohisarmsinanopen-heartedmanner,whichsurprisedme.Genevieve,whosefaceshonewithhappiness,seemedtowishtospeak,andtorestrainherselfwithdifficulty.
    ItoldRobertIwasgladtoseehim,andheansweredmewitheaseandcivility.
    "Iexpectedyouyesterday,"saidMichaelArout,ratherdryly.
    "Forgiveme,father,"repliedtheyoungworkman,"butIhadbusinessatSt.Germains.Iwasnotabletocomebacktillitwasverylate,andthenthemasterkeptme."
    Thejoinerlookedathissonsidewise,andthentookuphishammeragain.
    "Allright,"mutteredhe,inagrumblingtone;"whenwearewithotherpeoplewemustdoastheywish;buttherearesomewhowouldlikebettertoeatbrownbreadwiththeirownknifethanpartridgeswiththesilverforkofamaster."
    "AndIamoneofthose,father,"repliedRobert,merrily,"but,astheproverbsays,"youmustshellthepeasbeforeyoucaneatthem."ItwasnecessarythatIshouldfirstworkinagreatworkshop——"
    "Togoonwithyourplanofthestaircase,"interruptedMichael,ironically.
    "YoumustnowsayMonsieurRaymondsplan,father,"repliedRobert,smiling.
    "Why?"
    "BecauseIhavesoldittohim."
    Thejoiner,whowasplaningaboard,turnedroundquickly.
    "Soldit!"criedhe,withsparklingeyes.
    "ForthereasonthatIwasnotrichenoughtogiveithim."
    Michaelthrewdowntheboardandtool.
    "Thereheisagain!"resumedhe,angrily;"hisgoodgeniusputsanideaintohisheadwhichwouldhavemadehimknown,andhegoesandsellsittoarichman,whowilltakethehonorofithimself."
    "Well,whatharmistheredone?"askedGenevieve.
    "Whatharm!"criedthejoiner,inapassion."Youunderstandnothingaboutit——youareawoman;buthe——heknowswellthatatrueworkmannevergivesuphisowninventionsformoney,nomorethanasoldierwouldgiveuphiscross.Thatishisglory;heisboundtokeepitforthehonoritdoeshim!Ah,thunder!ifIhadevermadeadiscovery,ratherthanputitupatauctionIwouldhavesoldoneofmyeyes!Dontyouseethatanewinventionislikeachildtoaworkman?Hetakescareofit,hebringsitup,hemakesawayforitintheworld,anditisonlyapoorcreaturewhosellsit."
    Robertcoloredalittle.
    "Youwillthinkdifferently,father,"saidhe,"whenyouknowwhyIsoldmyplan."
    "Yes,andyouwillthankhimforit,"addedGenevieve,whocouldnolongerkeepsilence.
    "Never!"repliedMichael.
    "But,wretchedman!"criedshe,"hesolditonlyforoursakes!"
    Thejoinerlookedathiswifeandsonwithastonishment.Itwasnecessarytocometoanexplanation.ThelatterrelatedhowhehadenteredintoanegotiationwithMasterBenoit,whohadpositivelyrefusedtosellhisbusinessunlessonehalfofthetwothousandfrancswerefirstpaiddown.ItwasinthehopesofobtainingthissumthathehadgonetoworkwiththecontractoratVersailles;hehadhadanopportunityoftryinghisinvention,andoffindingapurchaser.Thankstothemoneyhereceivedforit,hehadjustconcludedthebargainwithBenoit,andhadbroughthisfatherthekeyofthenewwork-yard.
    ThisexplanationwasgivenbytheyoungworkmanwithsomuchmodestyandsimplicitythatIwasquiteaffectedbyit.Genevievecried;Michaelpressedhissontohisheart,andinalongembraceheseemedtoaskhispardonforhavingunjustlyaccusedhim.
    AllwasnowexplainedwithhonortoRobert.Theconductwhichhisparentshadascribedtoindifferencereallysprangfromaffection;hehadneitherobeyedthevoiceofambitionnorofavarice,noreventhenoblerinspirationofinventivegenius:hiswholemotiveandsingleaimhadbeenthehappinessofGenevieveandMichael.Thedayforprovinghisgratitudehadcome,andhehadreturnedthemsacrificeforsacrifice!
    Aftertheexplanationsandexclamationsofjoywereover,allthreewereabouttoleaveme;but,theclothbeinglaid,Iaddedthreemoreplaces,andkeptthemtobreakfast.
    Themealwasprolonged:thefarewasonlytolerable;buttheover-flowingsofaffectionmadeitdelicious.NeverhadIbetterunderstoodtheunspeakablecharmoffamilylove.Whatcalmenjoymentinthathappinesswhichisalwayssharedwithothers;inthatcommunityofinterestswhichunitessuchvariousfeelings;inthatassociationofexistenceswhichformsonesinglebeingofsomany!Whatismanwithoutthosehomeaffections,which,likesomanyroots,fixhimfirmlyintheearth,andpermithimtoimbibeallthejuicesoflife?Energy,happiness——donotallthesecomefromthem?Withoutfamilylifewherewouldmanlearntolove,toassociate,todenyhimself?Acommunityinlittle,isitnotthiswhichteachesushowtoliveinthegreatone?
    Suchistheholinessofhome,that,toexpressourrelationwithGod,wehavebeenobligedtoborrowthewordsinventedforourfamilylife.MenhavenamedthemselvesthesonsofaheavenlyFather!
    Ah!letuscarefullypreservethesechainsofdomesticunion.Donotletusunbindthehumansheaf,andscatteritsearstoallthecapricesofchanceandofthewinds;butletusratherenlargethisholylaw;letuscarrytheprinciplesandthehabitsofhomebeyondsetbounds;and,ifitmaybe,letusrealizetheprayeroftheApostleoftheGentileswhenheexclaimedtothenewbornchildrenofChrist:"Beyelike-minded,havingthesamelove,beingofoneaccord,ofonemind."

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